You deserve

You deserve to feel loved when you think you're hard to love.
You deserve to be called beautiful when you believe you're not.
You deserve to be surprised at the most boring days in your life.
You deserve to be with someone who sees no one better than you even if they are.
You deserve to be surrounded by them when you want to be alone. You deserve to be listened to when the words are too hard to be out.

You deserve to be someone's only choice.

Feeling

It feels ugly to see something stepping in your way.

Something that ruins the picture you draw for your dream.

Something that stops you from reaching the goal you've been struggling to get.

It feels sad to watch something you should be involved in.

However, it feels better when you have people who surround you. 

People who tell you they trust you no matter what. 

It feels better to feel loved even when you don't do what they love you for.

The A Team

And they say

She's in the Class A Team

Stuck in her daydream

Been this way since eighteen

But laately her face sees

Slowly sinking, wasting

Crumbling like pastries

They scream

The worst things in life come free to us

 She doesn't like what she's doing. She wants it to be different. She wishes she chose a better way to live her life. She thinks of how her life could've been if she didnt try these drugs when she was 18.

"for angels to fly, to fly fly, or angels to die". This girl, through her struggle, passes away. But the use of the term "angel", gives me the idea that she wasn't a nobody. Someone loved her. she was someones daughter, friend, sister, grandaughter, and maybe even, a true lover.

You Will SHINE

" Talk to yourself every time you feel that nothing is okay, talk to yourself every moment you think you won't get up again.

Tell it how impossible it was for you to get up and how you recovered. Tell it that you're strong enough even if the storms are getting stronger.

Remind it of how dark it was at times but light could get through the days at an unexpected timing.

Remember, you will shine.

Again.”

Believe

someday you won’t mind that you gave too much, you’ll realize that whoever gives innocently will receive the same one day and don’t forget no effort pulled to attain something beautiful is ever lost, believe this word and live by it. Someday you won’t mind that you didn’t get what you wanted once, you must believe there’s something better on the way, waiting for you to see it, you just have to believe.

Emotion

Emotion

I have such a sensitive nature, I can transpose myself in their hearts and understand how they feel and then I end up with two emotional points of views of a situation. Torn apart and stuck. It’s good for art, but it’s not good for my heart.

Grandfather you left me Alone

So many things we never got to do
So many conversations we never got through
I feel lost and empty now
every day I ask, how?
I could feel nothing when you died
I felt I wanted to run and hide
Run and hide cause I felt blind
Peace and clarity I couldn't find
They say when you die your soul just flies away
I wanted to chase your soul, so for another day you could just come and stay

You left me alone
With a pain that nearly killed me
I died a little more inside.

You have no idea
And probably never will
Of the pain you left me in the day you walked out
And you left me alone

You were my Grams, you taught me how to stand on my own
Now that you're gone, I feel as though I can't do it alone
I've tried so hard to see things through and become the person you wanted me to be
Sometimes it's just so hard being me
I'd give anything if I could just talk to you once more
To see you walk through the door
and tell me that everything was going to be alright for sure
When I look into the sky I picture you staring down
Which is why I have no reason to frown
All the things you taught me, all the songs we use to sing

I wish i could hear your voice
Just one more time
Or feel you lying next to me
I wish I could tell you
How much I loved you
But now I can't
And it makes me sad
You passed away
And left me alone
Since the day you died
I've felt so cold
No one knew the reason
You just passed so suddenly
You've always been my support
You were the one I trusted most
I could lean on you
When times got bad
You were my shoulder to cry on
You were my night
In shining armor
And now it makes sad
To know you're gone forever
It kills me inside
That I can't be by your side
Why did you have to leave
Why did you have to go
I wish I could see you
Just one more time
But I can't
Since the day you died
I never got so say goodbye that was the worst part
But I know that when you left secretly you said goodbye to my heart
So when I lay myself into bed tonight
I know you'll always be there to hold me tight.

but you left me alone