Grandfather you left me Alone

So many things we never got to do
So many conversations we never got through
I feel lost and empty now
every day I ask, how?
I could feel nothing when you died
I felt I wanted to run and hide
Run and hide cause I felt blind
Peace and clarity I couldn't find
They say when you die your soul just flies away
I wanted to chase your soul, so for another day you could just come and stay

You left me alone
With a pain that nearly killed me
I died a little more inside.

You have no idea
And probably never will
Of the pain you left me in the day you walked out
And you left me alone

You were my Grams, you taught me how to stand on my own
Now that you're gone, I feel as though I can't do it alone
I've tried so hard to see things through and become the person you wanted me to be
Sometimes it's just so hard being me
I'd give anything if I could just talk to you once more
To see you walk through the door
and tell me that everything was going to be alright for sure
When I look into the sky I picture you staring down
Which is why I have no reason to frown
All the things you taught me, all the songs we use to sing

I wish i could hear your voice
Just one more time
Or feel you lying next to me
I wish I could tell you
How much I loved you
But now I can't
And it makes me sad
You passed away
And left me alone
Since the day you died
I've felt so cold
No one knew the reason
You just passed so suddenly
You've always been my support
You were the one I trusted most
I could lean on you
When times got bad
You were my shoulder to cry on
You were my night
In shining armor
And now it makes sad
To know you're gone forever
It kills me inside
That I can't be by your side
Why did you have to leave
Why did you have to go
I wish I could see you
Just one more time
But I can't
Since the day you died
I never got so say goodbye that was the worst part
But I know that when you left secretly you said goodbye to my heart
So when I lay myself into bed tonight
I know you'll always be there to hold me tight.

but you left me alone